The
Making of a Superman
Chapter
1 In the Beginning
I
was born in Corona, CA. My dad was stationed at the 29 Palms Marine
base. My dad was shipped to Korea, so we came home when I was 12 days
old. My mother told me that when I was on the way to the Naval
Hospital where I was born, the car broke down in the middle of the
desert. My mom was in labor and my dad had to hitchhike back to the
Marine base to get someone to come help. As my mom was waiting in
the car out in the desert for my dad to return, a pack of coyotes
tried to attack her. She rolled up the window and had to endure the
desert heat with me in her belly. I guess that was the beginning of
my toughening. My dad DID finally return and my mom made it to the
hospital in Corona in time to give birth to me.
My
earliest memory is when I was six months old. I was sitting in a
small swimming pool on the front porch in Highlands, TX. My mom
called me into the house to show me a picture of my dad who was
overseas in the Marines. It was either that or sitting on an anthill
thinking it would make a fine stool. They happened around the same
age. I was living in this house.
When
I was 18 months old, shortly before my dad came home from Okinawa, I
was run over by my mother's best friend who had just gotten her
driver's license. I had quit breathing and my leg was stuck on the
tire and my leg broken under the fender well cover. I had quit
breathing so I was presumed dead. That's not the only time I made a
miraculous recovery but it was the first. Here is a picture of my
grandmother's house where I was run over in the driveway by my
mother's best friend who had just gotten her license. I was playing
with the shell in the driveway while my mother was untangling my
dad's fishing line in his fishing reel.
I
spent a lot of time at my grandmother's house. In fact, we
practically lived there. My uncle who was ten years older than I
would teach me Morse code, my grandfather would teach me about drums
and broke his lamb snare head when I was trying to play it which
taught me a little about physics. I saw that I couldn't break the
drum head beating on it as hard as I could so I turned the stick
vertical to the head and tried to hit it to see how it sounded. The
stick went right through it. My grandfather was very upset since
lambs heads were very expensive. I felt really bad and told him I
would buy him a new one. At three, I didn't really have a way to
repay him.
My
grandmother bought me my first toy guitar which I tried to tune even
though it had a crank to play. I went down one day knocking on
people's back doors, playing my little toy guitar and singing, and
asking for candy. The woman at the end of the street three houses
over gave me some candy and called my grandmother. My grandmother
came over there, apologized to the lady, grabbed me by the arm, and
switched me all the way home. That was my first spanking by my
grandmother and I thought I was being killed.
I
got in trouble for climbing a tree in the back when I was three or
four years old. I had climbed way to the top and when my grandmother
found me she told me to get down from there and switched me for it.
My grandparents had a piano on which I used to tinker playing things
like Chopsticks and basically learning the sounds of the notes,
creating my own songs sometimes. I learned right from wrong there.
At
her next door neighbor's house, I learned to play the accordion a
little but the old man had little patience with a four year old so I
didn't learn much. I think I got a song or two learned but that was
about it. The neighbors were the Esteraks. I was fond of the woman
of the house who fed her peacocks in her back yard. Even though her
name was Mrs. Esterak, I called her “Mrs. Quack Quack” because
that's the best I could do at that age. I think I learned to say her
name properly by the time I was four, but I think I still called her
Mrs. Quack Quack because that's what I had called her for so long
just like I called my aunts Doris “Aunt Dodo” and my other aunt
Billie “Aunt BeBe.” Here's a picture of Mrs' Quack Quack's
house.
By
this time I considered my grandparents more of my parents than my
real parents. Having my dad come home from the Marines was difficult
for me because I was used to getting all of the attention from my
mom, my uncle, and my two aunts who were nice. My dad... not so
nice. Moving away from the small town of Highlands to Houston with
my dad was even more difficult for me at first. I wasn't used to
this strange man with the loud Marine Sergeant voice yelling at me
and beating me. Here is a picture of the house in Houston.
It
was white back then and I thought that's what they were talking about
when they said The White House. When one teacher asked if anyone
knew where the White House was, maybe in second grade, I raised my
hand and when called on said, “I live in the white house.” Our
house was the only white house on the street and everyone in the
neighborhood called it “the white house” so I thought I was
right. The teacher had to explain that it wasn't the White House
where the government met.
There
I finally got used to having a father but hated the beatings,
sometimes for a small reason like accidentally coloring outside the
lines, or other times for no reason at all. He loved to beat me with
his belt so I didn't have too many fond memories of him. At one
point though, my dad started building a race car and made me
disassemble the engine. I think I was about eight or nine then. I
was still skinny and weakly but I managed to get most of it
disassembled with a little help from him on the hardest parts. He
and his friends would put it all together and he'd go race at Meyer's
Speedway in Houston. It was near Meyerland Plaza where my mother
used to shop. It was fun watching my dad race every week though. I
can't Meyer's Speedway anymore so it must have been torn down, but I
did find Meyerland Plaza on Google
Maps.
While
on Candleshade, I often experimented with electricity and robotics.
I suppose the Superboy comic books were responsible for my curiosity
in robotics since Superboy built robot duplicates of himself to carry
out tasks. I was also a fan of Robbie the Robot. I would read
Superman, Superboy, and any other comic that had Superman in it
during the Summers on the farm to be sure that I didn't miss
something Superman did. Since Superman was from space, a planet that
exploded, I was also interested in astronomy and how light from dead
stars took a long time to quit shining in Earth's sky because of the
distance relative to the speed of light. I also read about Tesla and
Einstein. I learned about Edison as well, but didn't much like him
because of his stealing Tesla's inventions and claiming them as his
own.
I
went to Windsor Village Elementary School during that time, and in
third grade at the age of seven, I was going to the restroom and saw
the principal and a few other people watching the Kennedy parade in
Dallas. I stopped to watch. It was a live broadcast. I actually
saw him get shot. When I got back to the classroom, the teacher
called me a liar and I believe paddled me. The next day she
profoundly apologized when she learned the truth for herself.
My
mother sent one of her friends to pick me up and I wouldn't get in
the car with her because they had just showed us a film on strangers.
I didn't really know what a stranger was, but she was trying to get
me into the car like a stranger did in the film, so I wouldn't go and
walked all the way home.
Having
the injury to my leg and dying for awhile caused me to be more sickly
and less athletic than other children my age and very skinny as well,
something that plagued me from that age through high school. Since I
was skinny and weak people would beat me up. Still, I continued to
do my best at whatever I could do. The scar on my leg from the
surgery was unsightly... and still is to some degree so I almost
never wore shorts, something difficult in Southeast Texas heat. When
I went to the beach, I hated to have to pull off my long trunks to go
swimming in my swimming trunks. It made me very self conscious. In
third grade I had an emergency appendectomy because my mother had
given me an enema because I had a stomach ache which further inflamed
the appendix. The appendix burst in the doctor's hand just as he
removed it. That put me out of commission for a few weeks. During
that time, I did a lot of reading. I loved science, mythology, and
religion. Since I was greatly confined to the house, I kept myself
busy with indoor activities. There was only one boy in the
neighborhood at first and he was weaker than I was so I was the
strongest boy in the neighborhood... until a bully moved in down the
street that was vertical to our house. He was VERY strong and beat
the snot out of me. My mother talked to his parents and had me go
over to his house to play with him one day and he seemed to hate me
less after that.
I
had an uncle who sang in a barbershop quartet. He had a multitrack
recorder and made a recording of Alvin and the Chipmunks visiting his
house. I thought it was real at first but had my doubts. When I
inquired, my uncle explained how he recorded himself at a slower
speed to make the chipmunk voices and recorded his voice at normal
speed for his voice. People teased me with the name “Calvin and
the Chipmunks” but I took it as a compliment so I really liked the
recording he made. I was intrigued. I wanted a tape recorder and
actually got a small one for Christmas one year. It was somewhat
similar to this one.
Mine
had a small microphone that you could clip on your pocket. I found
it was also good for spying on my sisters. Haha My mom always told
me that I was responsible for them and if they did anything wrong, I
would get a spanking. “Just wait until your father gets home”
were the words I dreaded most. I spied on my sisters to try to keep
myself from getting a beating, but it didn't always work.
I
also had a toy piano that had real working black keys. I would
sometimes record my little songs and thought I was marvelous as
little kids do. I loved music though and recorded myself singing a
Christmas song by Bing Crosby. When I was singing, I thought I
sounded exactly like him but when I played it back, I couldn't figure
out why I sounded so different. Eventually I got used to the sound
of my voice on tape.
My
aunt felt sorry for us since we were relatively poor at the time.
She would buy us Christmas presents to be presented as “Santa
Claus” gifts. I already had a train track and often played with
the transformer that powered it. One year when I was about five
years old, knowing that I loved robots, she bought me a Robot
Commando. I was a little disappointed that it didn't REALLY obey
commands. You just had to blow into the hand piece to make it work.
Still, it would fire balls from its hand using centrifugal force and
shoot soft tipped plastic rockets out of its head with a spring. If
something broke down on it, I would take it apart, fix it, and put it
back together. One year I tried to modify one of the rockets with a
wood burning iron and melted the plastic tip. At least I only
damaged one of the rockets. This video is pretty boring since the
guy is geekier than I am, but it does show the different features of
the robot and also shows the gears that operates the robot. I wasn't
aware that it was fifty years old.
My
mother was raised Methodist and took us to church every Sunday. I
didn't much care for Sunday School coloring pictures of Jesus, but I
loved hearing the pastor speak. The first time I heard about God, I
felt like I already knew him. I talked to the preacher and asked him
many questions. This was the start of a long relationship with God.
When
I was about five or six, one of my best friends had to move away.
His mother came to get him as he was playing outside with me. She
explained to us how her husband had been killed in Vietnam and how
horrible war was. Those words stuck with me throughout my life.
When I heard the beatitudes, I took note of the following verse:
Matthew
5:9
New
International Version (NIV)
9
Blessed are the peacemakers,
for
they will be called children of God.
From
that time on, my desire was to be a peacemaker. I tried to live as
Jesus did and tried to behave as the Bible taught us to. Still, I
was raised in a very strict Christian home and thought all evil
should be punished. I wanted to fight evil so I talked my mom into
getting me a Superman costume. She made me promise not to try to fly
off of the roof and explained that it didn't give you super powers.
Of course, when I got it, the first thing I did was try to fly off of
the top bunk of my bunk beds. I learned very quickly that it didn't
work when I hit the floor. Still, I wanted to fight evil like
Superman did on television. When the preachers said to resist evil,
I thought he meant physically.
Chapter
2 Life on a Farm
Every
Summer, my parents would send me to Mulberry, Arkansas to help my
grandmother on the farm. She had divorced my grandfather, making him
sell his motor yacht to buy the place, and moved to a farm to live.
She lived on a hill that was full of sandstone, so sometimes it was
difficult to get the garden started, but we eventually did. After
plowing and planting, there wasn't much to do but water the garden
and wait to water it again the next day. She lived on a hill that
was full of sandstone, so sometimes it was difficult to get the
garden started, but we eventually did. The sandstones came in handy
since the place was full of snakes and tarantulas. My uncle would
take me out walking the 54 acres and we'd frequently have to pick up
a sandstone to kill a snake or a tarantula with. My grandmother
would fatten me up during the Summer on the farm before she sent me
back home to go back to school. I also learned to shoot well on the
farm. You never knew when a wolf or a bobcat might try to attack you
or one of the farm animals. I enjoyed sitting around a campfire at
night and looking up at the stars. I developed a strong love of
nature and astronomy there.
I had
a dog there whom my grandmother named Comanche. It's mother was a
German Shepherd and it's father was a wild wolf that got hold of her
when she was “in season.” Although it was my grandmother's dog, I
was the only one that it would let near it. It was pretty wild
except when it was with me. I would scream, “Here Comanche” in
my then shrill
voice
at the top of my lungs and he would come running wherever he was and
whatever he was doing. He was my companion and my comfort for my
loneliness. He was also my guardian. I gained strength and weight
on the farm before I was sent back to my parents' house where I was
starved again by the next Summer... not because we didn't really have
money for food but because my dad would spend the grocery money on
alcohol instead of buying groceries as he said he was going to do.
Chapter
3 Longview
A
few years after my dad started racing, he was transferred to
Longview, TX by his company Triangle Refineries, Inc. where he had
been a computer programmer. He was a CEO of Premier Oil in Longview.
That's when things got rough. This was our house in Longview.
It's
still the same ugly pink that it was then.
It was
a split level home and our bedrooms were upstairs. The television
was downstairs on a room next to the basement. That's where my dad
would sit and drink when he got home. He started beating me and my
mom more frequently. I made a few friends there and even had a
girlfriend. I was eleven through twelve years old when we lived
there. The boys were pretty rough, most of them and their dads
being in the KKK. They liked to beat me up because I was a
Methodist and not a Baptist. One day at school, the boy across the
street who claimed to want
to be a Baptist preacher got a gang of kids together to beat me up
because I was Methodist. I asked him, “If you're going to be a
preacher, shouldn't you be acting as Jesus did?” He had no answer.
That gave me a pretty bad impression of Baptists. That made
things even harder. I talked to a friend about the beatings and his
father said he beat him with a razor strap that he kept in the
garage. It made me feel that a belt wasn't QUITE so bad. At least I
had a friend there who could relate.
It
wasn't all bad though. We had a great music teacher there at Pine
Tree Middle School at grade five. I also had an earlier music
teacher who taught us music appreciation and showed us historical
movies and music of Bach, Beethoven, and other great musical artists
throughout history. at Pine Tree Intermediate grade four. She taught
us to sing and taught us to read music and play the recorder. I
enjoyed that. The girl next door who was a grade ahead of me played
cornet, so I wanted to also but had to wait until I was in sixth
grade. The school gave performances by great artists and classical
musicians. The guy who did the whistling for the Andy
Griffith Show, Earle
Hagen,
put on a performance one time. He whistled both parts at once with
his mouth. Petula
Clark
came once and sang Downtown,
but since so many people made noise cheering when she came, they had
no more popular singers visit.
My dad
had decided to spend his money elsewhere and not at home. Every
night we would hide behind the couch to see if he came home sober or
drunk. If he was sober, he was relatively friendly. If he was
drunk, he was hell. By then I'd had enough of his Marine Corps
"discipline..." basically the torture he went through at 29
Palms. I was beaten at home and beaten at school. I wasn't athletic
then but did well at music. At the time we didn't realize that my
kidney was infected and was getting worse and worse. Besides my dad
starving me severely, my kidney problems were a source of me becoming
skeleton thin as well. Since my
grandmother
sold the farm and remarried my grandfather, I no longer had the farm
to go to in the Summer.
One
night, my dad came home, beat and pistol whipped my mom, shot a hole
in the door to the garage, then put the gun in her mouth as I spied
from the stairs. After that he made her strip so he could take
pictures of her. No, I'm not going to show you the pictures, but you
could see the fear and hurt in her face. I had her burn them. I
waited for him to walk past my door with my bow and arrow in hand,
but somehow fell asleep. Afterward, he went upstairs and laid on top
of my sister. My mom woke me up and I saw the bow and arrow laid
neatly on the floor next to my bed. I had to get up and push his
drunk, passed out ass off of her with my legs. He was 250 pounds and
I was a 98 pound weakling. That made me feel strong... at least
internally. I had to be brave since, when he hit the floor, I knew
that there was a chance that he would wake up and give me a severe
beating. Just being able to push him off of my sister made me feel
like Superman.
Although
I had been disciplined by a Marine, I didn't like to fight because I
wanted to be like Jesus. That got me beaten more than if I had stood
up for myself. I did occasionally get in a fight with a neighborhood
kid who would want to beat me up because I was skinny. Still, I
was
determined enough to tell my mom that I was going to take my sisters
and go move in with my grandfather if she didn't leave him. She
thought about it then finally made the right choice and left. One
thing that still haunts me about him is all the Country music I had
to listen to growing up as I was being beaten. My experiences DID make me quite tough, though even if I wasn't strong.
Chapter
4 Back to Houston
When
we arrived at my grandparents' house in Oak Forest, at 1410 Ebony Ln.
I had to finish fifth grade at Oak Forest Elementary. I didn't make
many friends there since I was new to the school and didn't know
anybody in the area. My grandparents lived in a small 2 bedroom
house but we managed to fit in there somehow. My bed was placed by
the big picture window facing the back yard. I could see the stone
patio and the fire pit my uncle made where we would roast
marshmallows when he was home from Texas A&M University. There
was also a pomegranate tree next to the fence in the back that
produced the most sweet pomegranates that I'd ever tasted to this
date.
Every
Summer when my uncle came home for three months from A&M, he
would bring a foreign student home to stay with us. One of them was
from India, another from the Dominican Republic, another from
Dalhart, TX. I learned a lot about foreign cultures during their
three month stay there... even from the one from Dalhart, TX since
that part of Texas was so different than Houston where I had spent
most of my life. The one from India taught me how to tie a towel
into a turban, a skill I have long since lost. We became friends and
he gave me a tennis racket to remember him by.
Speaking
of tennis rackets, there was a park one street over that had a
swimming pool and a couple tennis courts. When I wasn't swimming, I
was playing tennis. Both helped me to develop body strength and
endurance. When I was swimming, sometimes I would go to the deep
end, let out all of my breath, and go to the bottom to simulate
weightlessness, imagining I was in space. I really did want to
become an astronaut at that time, but later I would prove to be too
sickly to enter the military, much less go through astronaut
training. This happens to be where I lived when Star Trek first came
on. It's also where I got my first Vulcan sideburn haircut.
At
night in the Summer, my uncle, his friend from out of the country or
out of town and I would spend the evenings playing tennis. Besides
helping me develop some leg strength, it helped improve my poor
coordination. Having asthma, I couldn't play for more than two sets
a night without taking a puff from my inhaler, but it was fun.
My
grandmother had brought Comanche there from Arkansas. That was
probably a bad idea, though I loved him and he comforted me after the
horrifying ordeal that I had gone through in Longview. When my dad
came for a visit, Comanche wouldn't let my dad get anywhere near me
and I was glad for it. After a couple years though, being half wolf
and not liking strangers, he got outside and bit the mailman. My
grandparents told me that they had sent him off to Arkansas to the
Thorpe's where he killed a sheep so they had to put him down. Now I
know that it was more likely that they had to turn him over to Animal
Control and have him put down.
Chapter
5 Moving
When
I was about eleven years old, my grandfather decided that the house
was too small so he went out and started looking for larger houses.
There was one in the Heights that was pretty plain and there was one
in Garden Oaks that had beautiful architecture. He wanted the one in
the Heights but my grandmother and I fell in love with the one in
Garden Oaks. It had sculptured entrances to the living room and
dining room, a phone nook in the hall, a coffin shaped hall under the
stairs that had a cabinet on one side then the entrance to the
kitchen. It had lovely ceiling and floor molding and crystal door
knobs. It also had a crystal chandelier, French doors that opened up
to the balcony, and the tall pillars that held it up. It had an
artificial fireplace with a gas heater hookup in the living room but
it was better than no fireplace at all plus the mantle was handy.
The houses back then were designed for no air conditioning so they
were designed to have good air flow throughout the house. It did
have an attic fan on the second floor. My room was the first room
you came to after you made it up the stairs. It had a window that
overlooked the screen porch which would come in handy later. My
grandfather had the next room and my mom and sisters had the huge
room to the right past the full bath with a vanity table. The French
doors in my grandfather's room and my mom's room led to the balcony.
The bedroom that my mom and sisters in was HUGE. It held two double
beds easily and had room for an organ and still had plenty of room
left over. I think it was about 24'x18' but don't quote me on that.
It also had two huge walk-in closets that had shelves between them
and racks for shoes on each side consisting of a slanted board on
each side with a piece of quarter round trim at the top to hold the
heels. It was a magnificent old house and we were very glad that we
were able to talk my grandfather into getting it. What settled the
deal was that he got it for half price, $16,000.00 which would be
$82,434.83
in 2013 because
someone died there and the house was said to be haunted.
Some
strange things happened in that house. The
ghost that lived there was friendly. It was supposedly and ex-CIA
agent who died in the house. He mostly liked to slam the door between
the dining room and the kitchen if it was left open, but he would
play with me sometimes. I would place objects on the table in a
certain order and he would rearrange them. My grandparents, my uncle,
my mother, and my sisters all witnessed the events multiple times. He
also seemed to love Quentin's Theme. I had a bat kite hanging from a
string that never usually moved, but when I put on that record, it
would turn back and forth as if someone were dancing with it. When I
told my grandmother about it she said that Quentin's Theme used to
have another name. I can't recall the name she told me but it was
something similar to “Annie's Waltz.” I tried playing other music
from classical to hard rock to see if the kite would move because of
vibrations from the speakers, but it was to no avail. It only moved
when I played Quentin's Theme.
I was
still very skinny from being starved and kept getting sicker and
sicker the more I was beaten at school. My mom thought I was just
faking it until she finally took me to the doctor and he did a couple
tests on me and found out that there was something seriously wrong
with my kidney. I was in the middle of the 6th grade and
didn't want to have a surgery since that was the time when my
interest in girls was starting to peak, but the doctor said that if I
didn't have the surgery I'd be dead within a week, so off to testing
for surgery I went.
Radioactive
isotope imaging was relatively new back then and, for some reason,
when they would inject me with they dye, a nurse would yell, “Calvin,
get back here!” When I replied that I was still here and they
turned and saw me still on the table, they turned white as a sheet.
The nurses weren't the only ones to see me where I wasn't though. My
family and my best friend saw it at different times, each time
withing a day or two after the radioactive isotope had been injected.
I don't know if my spirit just didn't want any part of it or what
happened, but it was a strange occurrence. I only saw it once.
Eventually, after the test results were in, it was time to go off to
surgery at Texas Children's Hospital.
It was
an eight hour surgery in which they had to remove the infected part
which made my kidney the size of a grapefruit back down to the size
of a thumb then do skin graft from my intestines to make a new ureter
since the other one had been completely eaten away by the infection.
I must have woken up a time or two during the surgery as I seem to do
during all of my surgeries. They were rolling me into a room which I
thought was a closet and I thought I was beamed up to an alien ship.
There appeared to be a man with a crystalline white head and a scowl
on his face putting some kind of lizard skin on my stomach. When he
was through, I thought I was beamed back down and taken back into the
operating room. Looking back, it was probably the surgical mask, a
doctor with a scowl because the surgery was taking so long, and the
effects of the anesthesia making me imagine the strange images. They
took me to recovery where I was dying of thirst. My aunt finally had
mercy on me and dampened a washrag and squeezed a drop of water out
which seemed WONDERFUL! I was always thankful for that.
Once I
recovered enough to go to a room, the doctor asked me how I was
doing. I said, “I'm not dead yet. I'm getting better.” He was
shocked at what I said so I explained that I had just seen Monty
Python and the Holy Grail. He had no idea what I was talking about
though, then they transferred me to the bed and knocked me out with
morphine.
They
kept me asleep for about a week then gave me morphine as needed.
With the incredible pain I was in, “as needed” was as often as
possible. Imagine a strong punch to the kidney and multiply that by
100 an you probably have an idea of how it felt. The draining tubes
kept my back wet with urine and whatever other spillage was coming
out. When I finally came to enough, I looked at my stomach to see if
the lizard skin was there, and THERE IT WAS! It was probably just
the Tincture of Benzoin they put on my stomach that had dried and
cracked. I felt extremely miserable and I remained in the hospital
for a month. They had a book cart so I read every book they had then
my mom started bringing me homework from school so I wouldn't get too
far behind.
When
it was time for me to be released, the hospital, Texas Children's
Hospital, wouldn't let me leave until my mother came up with some,
for the time, ungodly amount of money. She had to sell off all of
the antiques that had been passed down through the family including
the dining room table that was hand carved and had leafs on each end
that could be pulled out and locked up in place to extend the table
for large events. She came up with the money finally and got me out
of there, then it was time to try to get back on the road to
recovery.
Since
I couldn't climb the stairs, my grandfather put a bed downstairs in
the ball room where my grandmother slept. I continued doing my
homework and kept asking for more until one day the teacher said,
“You've done all the work for the year.” That was in a span of
about two months.
Something
that may have quickened, or perhaps delayed, my recovery was when the
doctor gave my grandmother something he called “happy pills.”
One day she saw what amounted to tribbles before the “Star
Trek"
The
Trouble with Tribbles
episode aired. She had a broom and said to help her kill the fuzzy
balls that were everywhere. I looked and there was nothing there.
That got me kind of nervous. Another day, she told me to get the
fish with razor blade teeth off of her feet because they were eating
her. I pulled back the covers so she could see that there was
nothing there and she kept insisting that they were then looked at a
picture of my uncle and said they were eating him too. That TOTALLY
freaked me out. All I can imagine is that he must have given her
some form of hallucinogen, perhaps LSD, and was having some bad
trips. I talked to my mother and my grandmother about it afterward
and we agreed to flush the pills down the toilet. It freaked me out
so bad that I walked up the stairs and got in my own bed no matter
how much it hurt. I spent the rest of my recovery upstairs in my
room where I bunked with my uncle. We had taken the beds apart prior
to my surgery and put one on each side of the room. There was no way
I could make it to the top bunk.
Even
though I was in incredible pain, I continued to study things like
Science, Astronomy, Mythology, and the Bible. It was a difficult
time that I had to struggle to overcome, but finally I overcame it
enough to go back to school. When I got back, everyone was shocked
at how bone thin I was. The surgery had taken a lot out of me. My
eyes were sunken and black and I probably looked like a zombie or a
walking skeleton. Everyone else had become couples in my absence. I
probably missed out on one of the most important stages of my
development which would haunt me the rest of my life where
relationships were concerned. The teacher had to talk to the class
before I came in and everyone stared for quite a while. A few of
them stared for weeks. It certainly didn't help my love life any.
About
7th
or grade when I was thirteen, I took telescope to school, with the
permission of my Science teacher and my Gym coach, for the total
solar eclipse. It was Thursday, Sept. 11, 1969 (curious date) and I
put the sun filter on and gave everyone a turn to look as the sun and
sky darkened. I didn't expect the chill in the air, but it came.
Even the coaches took a turn looking which was good since we had to
set up on the outdoor basketball court. Everyone was in awe and
people left me alone for a little while. Later, the daily beatings
would start again. I didn't care about them hitting me as much as
when they hit others but they put me back in the hospital, damaging
my ureter in the beatings three times. They wouldn't let me heal.
Finally, Coach Cox took me under his wing and put me in the class
with the football players and other athletes. I did all of the
exercises but enjoyed running track the most. Still, I wouldn't join
a team because I didn't want it to interfere with my band
performances.
Dark
Shadows was huge at the time and learning that my great grandmother
had been a white witch before she converted to Christianity and
became a Seventh Day Adventist, I decided to try to study magic, or
magick as many people call it these days. I read every book
available trying to find a spell that would bring us money since my
mother had to sell everything and go into debt to get me out of the
hospital. I studied both black and white magic so I could get an
idea of the difference but none of the books had even one spell. One
day The Houston Post printed an article about Hoodoo or White Magic
that was used to fight Voodo. It contained a love spell which I
followed trying to get one particular young lady as a girlfriend. I
wanted to see if it worked. The spell took about a week to complete
and the last few days I had to go on a band trip. I got caught by a
teacher as I lit the candle in the bathroom. That interrupted the
spell. I don't know if it partially worked or if the young lady
found out and was flattered, but she did start talking to me. She
had a boyfriend though and her dad was a biker who was very strict
about who she went out with. Being a grade ahead of me, I think she
really just wanted to be friends. We did have a locker next to each
other and she and I would talk a little as we exchanged books for the
next class but that was it. I also tried burning green candles for
money as I had read in a book on witchcraft because I was wanting to
find a way to get money to replace the money my mother had spent on
me for my surgery and maybe get some of her furniture back. It
didn't work, of course.
I did
finally get a girlfriend who lived a block away. Her name was Betty.
She was very forward and every time we would get to petting heavily
her parents would return. I learned the sign language alphabet so I
could talk a little with her deaf aunt and cousin who lived a few
houses down from her. I took her to the country club when my aunt
Doris invited us. We went swimming and she tried to get me to read
her lips. I couldn't make out what she was saying but she finally
whispered, “Feel me off.” I wanted to borrow the car to drive to
a more secluded area, but I guess she wanted it right then.
Eventually she tired of me and became extremely cruel. One Summer
when I had a very bad sunburn she scratched my back with her long
fingernails. She called me a pussy when I screamed in pain. She
then started hitting me so I decided it was best not to try to
continue the relationship. She wanted to break up and I was tired of
the abuse.
I
walked down her street to get home to avoid the heavy traffic on W.
43rd
St. There was a gang of rich kid bullies there who would beat me up
every day. One of them tried to pick on me alone one day and I
knocked him off of his bicycle with my briefcase full of books. My
grandfather happened to be following me without my knowledge to see
where the bullies were. When he saw that I was being picked on
again, he drove up in his work car. He was a Tax Assessor/Collector
and his car had an emblem on the side. They thought he was an
undercover police officer and after that they quit beating me on the
way home.
When I
went to school the bullies would beat me more. To go to one class,
there was only one walkway that led to the class. There were chains
hung between the steel support beams that the bullies would sit on
with the shackle of a lock on their fingers with the lock in their
hand and beat me with it as I walked through. I quickly tired of it
and tried to find an alternate route but that only got me beaten
worse. I often thought of hitting them with my thick briefcase in
which I carried all of my books, but I wasn't sure that would be the
best method of dealing with them. One day, I finally got mad and
pulled on the middle of the chains, knocking them off, and running
through the gamut. They didn't hit me as hard after that. It made
me hate bullies. I swore that I would get in condition one day to
stop bullies from picking on people.
Because
of my uncle who was my roommate, I was a huge James Bond fan. He had
turned me on to the music of Goldfinger, which I loved at the time,
and the album cover with the naked gold painted lady on the cover. I
read the entire bible cover to cover that year but I was also a boy
who was getting close to puberty. Since I was 13 years old, my mom
took me to see my first James Bond movie, On Her Majesty's Secret
Service. I loved his real martial arts moves and actually
thought he was better than Sean Connery though I had not yet seen a
Sean Connery movie. That was the movie where James Bond got married
and his newlywed wife was shot in the head. Connery said that he
wouldn't do it because he didn't want to make his audience cry.
George Lazenby certainly did a good job of making the audience cry
after convincing the audience that he was really in love with Dianna
Rigg's character, Tracy. Dianna Rigg's “Karate” wasn't very
realistic, but who cared? It was Dianna Rigg. I think Connery fans
just didn't want to give Lazenby a chance because he was the first to
replace Connery. That stupid scene with him putting away all of the
“Q” gear from movies he didn't play in probably didn't help.
Even never having seen a Connery movie at that point, I thought that
scene was ridiculous. In spite of everything else, it made me want
to be a spy for the CIA so I started watching all of the Bond movies
and tried to duplicate the gadgets at my desk in my bedroom. One
Christmas or birthday my mom bought me a small “James Bond
Briefcase.” They offered them at Sears where my mother worked and
I HAD to have one. They had three different cases. I wanted the
most expensive one, but had to settle for the middle one. Still, it
did have a built-in walkie talkie which I used with my other walkie
talkie and my toy base station that I could tune to channel 14 to
talk with friends on the other walkie talkies. I would climb out the
window onto the roof and tell my neighbor to meet me at the fence
then jumped to a nearby tree and shimmied down to meet him.
In
high school I was a HUGE James Bond and Bruce Lee fan and went to an
almost all black theater on Prairie St. In downtown Houston to watch
the martial arts movies. It was a rough part of town with strip
clubs, whores, and pimps but I was there for the movies and I had
almost no fear. In fact, I think most people feared me because I was
a crazy white boy in an all black theater in the worst part of
Houston second only to the 5th Ward where they often killed police
who responded to calls there.
Through
eighth grade I never fought. In ninth grade, I got tired of being
beaten up by gangs of football players mostly and gave one a thorough
ass whipping. I hate to say that violence is sometimes a better tool
for peace making, but sometimes it seems to be. I had started taking
Judo and Tae Kwon Do. I wasn't bothered too much after that except
in high school when an occasional jerk would want to fight me. I
also once got the band to charge through the JROTC so we could have
our breakfast. Why they decided to try to keep us from eating since
we had to be there at 6:00am to start band practice, I'll never know.
It was important to me though because I had to work until 3:00am
then be at band practice by 6:00am so that gave me very little time
to sleep and no time to eat at home.
I went
to church every Sunday and Wednesday. I often spoke to the minister
or preacher of whichever church I attended. I always asked them if
they knew what the unforgivable sin was. If they didn't answer
correctly, I figured that they didn't know enough to be my preacher.
In
high school at lunch, a group of us sat at a table and discussed the
bible. Each of us were from different religions. At the time, I had
become discouraged with my Methodist minister and was seeking the
truth about God and Jesus. Some things that were preached didn't add
up. I decided to try the different religions to see which one was
best for me.
The
first one I tried was Baptist. I went to First Baptist Church in
Houston, TX. I was working very hard at a minimum wage job at
Weingarten's, a grocery store, trying to make enough to buy my school
supplies and my gasoline, and also to try to save for college. I was
happy to tithe my 10%. Soon, the preacher started asking for more
and more. He wanted to build a new church building since the one
downtown had become quite old and was in need of serious repair or
demolition. He asked us to dig deep into our pockets and told us how
Mr. Colgate of Colgate toothpaste used to attend his church and
started giving 10% then 20% then 30% and God blessed him with
success. He also said that he had no idea how much he was giving now
since he had moved. I gave all I could... more than I could
actually. I found that I didn't have enough money left for my school
supplies and definitely didn't have any money for savings for
college. When I found that the preacher had used the money to build
a church that was more like a country club, complete with bowling
alleys and tennis courts, I felt betrayed. They could have used the
money to start a kitchen for the poor rather than build a bowling
alley. That caused me to start looking for another church.
As it
came to pass, I ended up visiting a Catholic church and couldn't
understand the Latin which made me think it was pretty useless, then
was persuaded by a very intelligent woman whom I admired to join the
Church of Christ. I later made the mistake of following that woman
to a Church of Christ Bible College, but that's another story. It is
worth mentioning though because it was there that I first started
learning nunchaku and Ju Jitsu.
I
wanted to expand on my martial arts ability and took Tai Chi Chuan
then took Ju Jitsu after reading Bruce Lee's book “The Tao of Jeet
Kun Do.” After that, I would stop gangs from picking on a single
person... yes, by force. I would sometimes have to tackle people
with knives and once a gun but made it through unscathed.
When
I was 16 my grandfather bought me a car. It was a 1969 two door
Chevy Impala. I drove like James Bond did in the movies and
considered being a stunt driver. I did jumps over steep railroad
tracks and drove on two wheels a couple times. After wrecking my
first car when I was 21 I went to a lot with my grandfather and we
got a used FBI car. It handled the stunts much better even when I
drove around with a 300 pound friend in the passenger seat and my
other friends in the back seat. I used my C.B. Radio on channel 9 as
my police radio and I thought of myself as an assistant to the police
sort of like Superman. I would drive around town reporting crimes,
stopping criminals, and keeping gangs from beating up innocent
individuals. I had always wanted to be a police officer and knew
many police officers but they considered me to be too skinny for the
force. Because of that, I sometimes assisted them in ways that they
couldn't legally stop crime.
I
can't say that I was always a good peacemaker even though I longed to
be one. Though I hated war because I knew of the horrors of war from
my upper classmates who had been and knew of it from my friend whose
mother told us about her husband dying and how incredibly bad war
was, I thought being a policeman was being a peacemaker at the time.
I thought policemen were there to help the general public. It didn't
sink in until later about the police beating protesters and the ROTC
shooting the victims at Kent State that police weren't always good.
Chapter
6 – Social Life
I did quite a bit of dating in high school since I had a job and a car. I did some fairly heavy petting with several girls but never went past "second base" because I was trying to save myself for marriage. I can't tell you how much sex I turned down (silly me). I really WAS in love with a woman named Sharon. We had gone to quite a few upscale places and events together and people would often comment what a lovely couple we made, though she would generally deny that we were a couple. Her dad was a rich accountant for a prominent bank in the front of Town and Country Village Mall in Houston. I can't remember the name of the bank at present. I was just a poor son of a divorcee so I was looked down upon by her parents. I just wasn't in the same social class even though I was living in the neighborhood right next to hers.
I
always wanted to go to a formal event for New Year's Eve. That would
be $1,184.83 in 2013 dollars. Quite a lot for a minimum wage worker.
I bought tickets for one that was $125 a piece for a ball in
Houston. I had saved and saved to buy those tickets. She turned me
down. I was heart broken. That was in 1974.
I
ended up dating an intelligent woman whose dad was a Church of Christ preacher. Her name was Sherilyn. She was a very intelligent woman whom I ended up following to a Christian college in Florida
since my real love at the time had turned me down. When I got there,
I was shocked at how they treated the students. They ran the college
like a prison camp and even housed and schooled prisoners there.
They followed people when they went on dates to be sure that they
weren't doing anything they considered ungodly. One day they brought
a couple up on stage in front of the entire college student body and
shamed them for “going to a pizza place, having part of one beer,
then kissing!” The woman was embarrassed to death and wouldn't
even look at others. I approached her and told her that she did
nothing to be ashamed of and that she should sue the college for
defamation of character. She was too ashamed at first but then
realize I was right. She won a sizable reward and the college was
forced to change its behavior. I realized that this was not the
religion for me and left after half a semester to go back to Texas
and attend the University of Houston.
Chapter
7 – Becoming a “Superman”
When I
was at Florida College, one of my suite mates was a Navajo Native
American who knew Jiu Jitsu. He taught me how to make and use
nunchaku. That inspired me to take martial arts at a regular class
from a master instead of relying on my uncle to come home on leave to
teach me Tae Kwon Do. Since I had studied Tae Kwon Do and did the
best to do everything in the book my uncle gave me, I decided to take
a softer form of martial arts, Tai Chi Chuan. I learned that you
could block using less energy and increase your endurance in a fight.
I also learned to manipulate “Chi,” a sort of electrical force
that runs through us all. After studying for about a year and a
half, I learned to either slow down time for others or speed it up
for me which allowed me to get multiple hits in at times.
My
best friend was usually my copilot watching for criminals and telling
me where to turn. His name was Thomas McLean. One day when we were
at the Northline Mall an illegal alien stole some gold from a small
jewelry kiosk in the store. Tom and I quickly pursued the criminal
but used caution since he had a gun. We ran to the car to pursue
him, Tom watching where he was running as I got into the car and
started the engine. Tom yelled, “There he goes!” He pointed the
direction and I was in hot pursuit. He pulled the gun and I told Tom
to get down. I also got down and sped straight toward him. He was
so scared that he dropped the gun and ran.
A
bunch of other people on foot were searching for him also. He seemed
to vanish as we approached the freeway. They were looking along the
top of the freeway and I had pulled into a U-Haul trailer shop to try
to see where he went. I spotted the criminal and yelled, “He's
down there below you!” The criminal ran across to the drive-in
theater across the street from the U-Haul and I almost ran over him,
sliding to a stop when he slipped and fell with the front of the car
barely over him. The crowd followed and we had him cornered. I got
into a stance and told him not to move.
Soon,
a pair of butch looking ladies pulled up in a Toyota that would
barely hold them and grabbed him. They stated that they were mall
security. They put him in the car and drove to the back of the mall.
I followed in case they needed my testimony. They told me to wait
outside as they entered their office which was made of plywood. I
heard them yelling at the criminal and throwing him against the wall
and giving him a thorough working over. I thought that was pretty
brutal having stopped to think that maybe he was just trying to feed
his family. They came out and thanked me for catching the criminal
and said I could go. My policy was like Superman's. Never kill or
seriously injure anyone. At the time I was a “An eye for an eye
and a tooth for a tooth” Christian. I also focused on “Love what
is good and hate what is evil.” I made it my mission to stop evil
wherever I could.
My
“copilot” Tom bought me an 8 Track tape of the soundtrack to On
Her Majesty's Secret Service. This inspired me to drive like a
mad man, doing stunts to prepare for what crime we may face. I had
found out that Tom was good at spotting criminals but wouldn't take
any action if there was trouble. Still, I was glad to have him
along. He was good at giving me directions when someone got out of
my sight because I was keeping my eyes on the road just as he had
done with the incident at Northline Mall in Houston. We would drive
along many streets in Houston, but we most often travelled from North
Shepherd to South Shephard then took the loop back. Most of the
trouble occurred close to the black area of town... usually a robbery
at gunpoint which I would foil with my car and my CB radio.
Sometimes I would “patrol” the NorthWest Mall area or T.C. Jester
and Ella, but the police usually had Ella covered.
I
would practice in parking lots, especially on rainy days, to do
turns, skids, recoveries, and other emergency moves as my Driver
Training instructor suggested. I would also jump railroad tracks...
which was much easier when I got my FBI car because the car wouldn't
bottom out, even with a 300 pound passenger in the passenger side.
I had
changed jobs and started working for Farrell's Ice Cream
Parlor/Restaurant at which I became fountain manager. I decided that
after two years of Tai Chi Chuan and reading and practicing Bruce
Lee's “The Tao of Jeet Kun Do,” I needed to try something that
used Judo-like flips. I started taking Jiu Jitsu. I found all but
one of my fellow class mates to be on the Houston SWAT team. I think
I only took Jiu Jitsu for about a year because my inspection sticker
expired and I couldn't afford to get my muffler fixed so I could get
a new one. I was afraid the police might arrest me or give me a
ticket putting me further into debt. At this point though, I felt
ready to take on crime on the streets. At the time I was of the
opinion that a Christian should fight criminals and get them off the
streets. I was young and less compassionate in those days.
With
Tim gone, I became a one man crime stopping machine. I foiled more
gunpoint robberies using my car as a weapon. I would stop gangs from
picking on one person. One time, one of my fellow Tai Chi Chuan
students was being attacked in a parking lot. Our master had taught
us that Chinese stick together instead of just sitting back and
watching like the other martial arts did. I didn't see the
beginning, but I did see a gang of about six or eight people beating
him up. I squealed my tires into the parking lot, screeched to a
halt in a parking space, jumped out of the car, and started beating
the people off of him. After I shamed the people for ganging up on
one man and they went on their way, I turned to Bobby and said,
“Please tell me that you didn't start this.” He hung his head
and said, “I sort of did.” I chastised him about doing such a
thing, especially with his inexperience, but I had saved his life and
made a friend. It was actually the second time I saved him. The
first was in 6th grade when he was walking across the
street and a person in a station wagon wasn't paying attention and
was about to hit him. I darted across the street pushing him out of
the way. The mirror to the station wagon scraped my behind. He had
turned to me and said, “What are you doing? Trying to save my life
or something?” I just shook my head.
Being
a crime fighter was pretty much a thankless job. Still, it made me
feel good that I was able to be that strong and quick and be able to
do something to help the community. I kept a low profile and only
talked to two officer friends. They pretty much advised me just not
to get caught and don't interfere with a crime scene. They didn't
really discourage me though, so I kept on doing what I did.
Chapter
8 – University of Houston
After
coming back from Florida College, I went to the University of Houston
majoring in Electrical Engineering. I was working at Farrell's to
pay my tuition and buy my supplies. I was cutting it pretty close.
As I was walking from one of my classes in the engineering building,
I was approached by a CIA recruiter. He wanted me to join up with
them and said that I would need to take three foreign languages to be
in the elite service. I told him I would think about it. They also
happened to be doing a study on the effects of marijuana on students
where a person would smoke marijuana and click a counter. I thought
about doing that, but at the time was a marijuana virgin and decided
against it. I thought about going ahead and signing up for the CIA
but I thought about what they really did, having learned a little
more about the service from history classes and decided against it.
The next semester I didn't have the money to pay for my tuition so I
had to apply for a grant. I was told that I couldn't get a grant
because they had to give it to a black person to meet their quota.
My father had just died in a truck driving accident so I couldn't get
any help from him. I ended up having to just go to work to help
support my mom and sisters as well as myself. I had spent too much
time majoring in pinball at their game room there anyway and my
grades suffered for it. It was time to do something else.
I
continued to work at Farrell's Ice Cream Parlor/Restaurant where I
met a woman who really took a liking to me. She claimed to be a
lesbian but after awhile she took a real liking to me. She would
meet me in the freezer in the back where we would steal kisses, hug,
and ass grope each other. I converted her to Christianity and she
ended up getting kicked out of her apartment because her gay
roommates didn't like it. She asked me for a place to stay. I asked
my mom if she could live with us at our house in Friendswood and
explained the situation. My mother reluctantly agreed. I really
didn't know what I was getting into.
Chapter
9 – Making Love and Getting Married
I
won't say the woman's name, but she went by “Missy.” We were
both riding together in the Audi I had bought commuting from
Friendswood to the Northwest Mall to work. I was really still in
love with my high school sweetheart, but each day when we got home,
she would tempt me more and more. I continued to resist her
advances. One day though, I got mononucleosis from drinking out of
the wrong water glass on break at work. Another woman that worked
there informed me that she had mono and I had accidentally drunk from
her glass. I didn't expect to get it, but I did. Because I
continued practicing my martial arts, it eventually turned into
hepatitis. I became so sick that I couldn't get out of the bed even
to go to the bathroom without assistance. Missy was always more than
ready to assist me.
One
day, after coming back from the bathroom thoroughly exhausted, Missy
reached under the covers, stuck her head under, and started giving me
a blow job. I was too weak to fight her off and she wouldn't stop
with my pleas. I came in her mouth and she swallowed it and said
that I owed her sex since I wasn't a virgin anymore. I told her I
still was a virgin because I hadn't entered her... um... sacred
temple. She became angry and frustrated. The next day when she came
home from work, she crawled into my bed, pulled off her clothes, and
started trying to stick my penis in her vagina. She would stick the
tip in and I would pull it out. After a few times of this, of
course, I couldn't resist and said, “Oh well. I always wanted to
find out what it was like anyway.” I then rolled over on top of
her and used the advice I had learned on the construction work job
site and from books to do the best I could. Feeling breasts without
clothing for the first time was great! It felt much better than
feeling them through clothing. I guess we went on for about twenty
or thirty minutes while listening to Doc Severinson and Henry
Mancini's Album on 8 track tape, “Brass on Ivory.” We
experienced orgasm at the same time. It was WONDERFUL! When we were
though, I collapsed on the bed again and just held her for awhile. I
really couldn't move after that. She started crying and I asked her
why.
“You
lied to me! You've had sex before”
“No,
I haven't.”
“Yes
you have! How else could you make love like that?”
“I
read a lot of books and talked with the construction workers as we
worked when I was trying to make money for college.”
“You
talk about sex on the job?”
“Yes.
That's about all they talk about on the job.”
“Oh.”
She
looked at me and looked a little disappointed that we talked about
sex on the job but continued to lay there with me as we held each
other in our arms.
She
had gotten my “cherry” but she was under age. I wanted her to go
back and live with her mother until she was eighteen. In the mean
time, we continued to have sex every day. I finally did convince her
to go home.
Chapter 10 Getting Married and Being Introduced to Drugs
Chapter 11 Having a Child
Chapter 12 Divorce
Chapter 13 Running Wild
Chapter 14 Breaking Up an Opium Dealing Ring
Chapter 15 Settling Down With a Con Artist
Chapter 16 Diane
Chapter 10 Getting Married and Being Introduced to Drugs
Chapter 11 Having a Child
Chapter 12 Divorce
Chapter 13 Running Wild
Chapter 14 Breaking Up an Opium Dealing Ring
Chapter 15 Settling Down With a Con Artist
Chapter 16 Diane
Chapter
? Sharon
First,
I got a call from the detective at the sheriff's office asking me to
come look at the video from the HEB where my stolen debit card was
used to purchase some drugs. As I suspected, it was Sharon's son.
Unfortunately, there wasn't a clear shot of his face, so the video
may not be of much use in court. To find out whose name was on the
prescription he picked up, it will take a subpoena.
Sharon had borrowed my car yesterday, so she wasn't here to get the good news. She left at 11:30am and was supposed to be back in an hour or so. About 3pm, I tried calling her cell phone, but she didn't answer. I called every couple hours after that and sent her text messages, but to no avail. I called the hospitals and police to see if she had been in an accident, but they couldn't seem to find any record of her. I was starting to think she took off somewhere with my van never to return. Finally, about 11:30pm, she arrived with a flat tire on the front and said that she'd had another flat tire on the rear but had repaired it with Fix-A-Flat. By that time, I was quite angry since I had needed my car to go get another set of guitar strings and a few other things. (Now I wish I had gone ahead and ordered the strings online.)
I checked on the net the next day and found that the auto salvage yards in the area don't have sites to list the available parts. The salvage yards seem to be just inside Houston, so I'm going to have to get someone to drive me out to get a couple wheels so I will have a good wheel on the front and a wheel for a spare. As far as you have to drive to get anywhere around here, one of those compact spares won't do any good. You have to be careful with which tire you get. The last one I bought, even though it was a 15", was shaped in a manner that it locked against the brake rotor when you tightened the lugs. I guess I'll have to find a tire specifically for a 92 Dodge Grand Caravan.
I am payed for the anger and anxiety. My muscles and back are aching from the tension I experienced. I can barely stand or walk and it's pretty painful even to sit. At least I can say it hasn't been boring, I guess.
Sharon had borrowed my car yesterday, so she wasn't here to get the good news. She left at 11:30am and was supposed to be back in an hour or so. About 3pm, I tried calling her cell phone, but she didn't answer. I called every couple hours after that and sent her text messages, but to no avail. I called the hospitals and police to see if she had been in an accident, but they couldn't seem to find any record of her. I was starting to think she took off somewhere with my van never to return. Finally, about 11:30pm, she arrived with a flat tire on the front and said that she'd had another flat tire on the rear but had repaired it with Fix-A-Flat. By that time, I was quite angry since I had needed my car to go get another set of guitar strings and a few other things. (Now I wish I had gone ahead and ordered the strings online.)
I checked on the net the next day and found that the auto salvage yards in the area don't have sites to list the available parts. The salvage yards seem to be just inside Houston, so I'm going to have to get someone to drive me out to get a couple wheels so I will have a good wheel on the front and a wheel for a spare. As far as you have to drive to get anywhere around here, one of those compact spares won't do any good. You have to be careful with which tire you get. The last one I bought, even though it was a 15", was shaped in a manner that it locked against the brake rotor when you tightened the lugs. I guess I'll have to find a tire specifically for a 92 Dodge Grand Caravan.
I am payed for the anger and anxiety. My muscles and back are aching from the tension I experienced. I can barely stand or walk and it's pretty painful even to sit. At least I can say it hasn't been boring, I guess.
Chapter
? Heart Surgery
Sometime
in March of 2013, I woke up lashed to a hospital bed. I didn't recall
going to the hospital nor did I recall being rushed to surgery. All I
saw was Vietnamese-looking nurses and wondered if I had been captured
by the Vietnamese... though I never went to Vietnam. Too many war
movies I suppose.
I
didn't feel like I had been operated on. I guess the anesthetics they
injected inside me were still working. I was informed that I tried to
pull out my breathing tube and had torn my vocal cords. I must have
tried to pull out one of the blood tubes from my neck also. In fact,
I think I remember doing it, though it is a brief memory. I know I at
least touched it. I finally gained enough
My
hospital stay was brief compared to the last CABG. Although I felt
great compared to the first one, they did let me out of the hospital
too early. They ignored the pneumonia that I had in my left lung
which caused me to have to go back into the hospital a couple more
times.
My
chest cavity was raw inside where they tried to wash away all of the
blood that had been spewing from that artery that detached. They told
my mom that the heart was so covered with dried blood that they
didn't know how it was still beating. It caused me extreme pain but
they didn't want to give me pain medication that would actually work.
I did finally get them to double my hydrocodone and that helped
somewhat... kind of like better than nothing.
Although
I felt better than last time, I didn't really felt well enough to
write. I just didn't have the energy... especially with this COPD
which they're blaming on smoking but is more likely from the asbestos
that was floating in the air when they tore it down from the unit. In
fact, the operators who smoked lived longer than the people who
didn't as a rule. I suspect the tar probably decreased the amount of
agitation from the asbestos. The company doesn't want anything like
that to be exposed, though so they'll probably never look into it.
Besides, I didn't smoke that much. Just enough to protect my lungs if
that really was the case. I did sometimes smoke a pack a day but I
also had years when I quit. Now I'm smoking three to nine puffs a
day... sometimes up to one cigarette a day if it's really a stressful
day. Still, the doctors want me to quit completely.
There
really isn't much left that they can remove without causing me
extreme medical problems, so hopefully they don't TRY to remove
anything else.
