Thanksgiving 2022

 Thanksgiving 2022

I sit here this Thanksgiving, now that I've given thanks, contemplating on my loved ones who are no longer with us.  I relatively recently lost my mother and my ex-fiancee.  About twenty years before that, I lost my wife of fifteen years.  All were lost close to the holiday season.

It's sort of strange.  You expect it to have an effect on you but I find myself in sort of limbo.  It's not that I don't miss them.  I do.  It's just that I don't feel as though I have suffered a great loss.  Maybe it's because I got a peek at what heaven was like when the doctor accidentally killed me for a short time?  I really don't know.

It could be because I was so grateful to God for giving me a warm place to sleep, food to keep me alive, and a loving family.  I don't know if I have been this thankful before.  The world stage looks like something out of Revelation and our country isn't looking much better.  I wouldn't have believed it possible that my country would sink this low.  Even more shocking is that the people in this country would just let it happen without a fight, yet, here we are.  If only I could awaken and find that it was just a bad dream.  That's not likely to happen though.  It doesn't do any good for me to want freedom for my descendants more than they want it for themselves.  They are the ones who are young and able, not me anymore.  At least they can't say that I didn't warn them.