Seeking Solace - Poem

Seeking Solace

I sit here
Sleepless
Smoking a cigar
Watching the smoke
Whisping past the monitor
Locking my feelings
Deep inside
So as not to disturb
Those who are celebrating
Emptiness is mine
Yet I search
Grasping for hope
Like a drowning man
Grasping for straws
Then I notice
That inside my heart
Which sustains me
Through my trials
Through my heartbreak
Through my lonliness
Through my despair
That dear thing
That spark
Which lives on inside me
Not of me
But part of me now
Letting me know
I'm never alone
Even to death
In death
And beyond death
A spark who died
For the sins of the world
As have others
Throughout time

Copyright © 2009 Cal Jennings