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Sunday, March 1, 2015

The Betrayal - Creative Riters Challenge #11

Creative Riters Corner # 11












You have reached a point in life where you're throwing the old debris out, your way of preparing to start over and restarting your life. As you rummage through old stuff, you find something which you received earlier in the year which meant a great deal to you then, but which only causes pain now.








Tell us about it by showing us who gave it to you, where it's been, and what has caused it to fall out of favor. Write in the voice of your opposite gender for this challenge -- if you're female, write as a man, if male, as a woman.




No word limit.

















The Betrayal







She was to have been my lesbian wife. She had been following me on the Internet ever since I had my live show on LiveVideo but had stayed mostly hidden in the background since the site closed.









About four months ago she came to me and confessed how much she needed me. I was fed up with women and I certainly didn't want any of those foul men. Men are dirty and disgusting. I tried to discourage her at first because my heart had been broken so many times before by lesbians who just wanted to use me. I guess they saw my Supergirl outfit and thought that I was just crazy and could be easily used.









Margaret pled and pled with me to give her a chance. Our personalities seemed to be a match made in heaven. She was the most wonderful butch I had ever met. We lived in separate areas of the UK. I lived in London and she lived in Houghton Regis. I didn't care that we lived a distance apart. I was more than willing to travel to her or have her travel to me.  Even though I didn't have much money left over each month I had secretly started saving the moment I met her because she was the one.  I simply quit eating some days and suffered rather than taking my pharmaceuticals just so we could be together one day.




She was so thin and handsome.  Everything a fluff like me could want.  She was MY Princess Charming, nay, my queen to whom I would devote my life and services.










I always loved the way she teased me and ordered me about, sending me to the step when I was naughty.  When she started sending me to the pink fluffy step, I knew that her feelings had deepened.  One day, she finally admitted that she had feelings for me.
I was so happy that she finally admitted it that I was overjoyed.  She, like I, was afraid of love because we had been hurt so many times before but she finally said that she loved me.  I had to do something special.










I started writing her a song and she wanted to hear what I had written.  She had put on a Superman shirt for me to match my Supergirl outfit.  When I saw it, I became so hot and wet that I almost slipped off of my chair.


I told her that for me to be able to let her hear it, I would need a picture so that I could put the song in a YouTube video to send to her.  She gave me permission to take a screenshot picture of her in the Superman shirt to use for the song.  She got out of her chair and posed and I snapped the shot.  It was the only thing that she ever really gave me.



















She got scared and blocked me.  I knew that she feared her feelings so I wrote her a letter.  Finally, she unblocked me but told me never to post on her wall.  I found that strange but I was so in love that I obeyed her wishes.  She was so forceful and strict that it really thrilled me.










The next day, she showed me the wedding outfit that she wanted and chose the ring that she wanted.  Knowing that she was sick and broke, I was ready to buy anything she wanted.
She told me that she wanted to get married in a castle so I found the best castle which used to allow wedding ceremonies.  They said that they no longer allowed weddings there so I showed her a few other castles but I was secretly going to make a large donation to their restoration fund if they would allow our wedding.  I wanted it to be a surprise.  She said that she wanted to come visit so I secretly started saving for her ticket as well.  By stopping all of my pharmaceuticals and eating only once every other day, I was able to save more quickly than I realized.









We continued to talk and one day, because she had started being stand offish, I told her I was going to start dating someone else if she couldn't commit.  Every time I told her I loved her, she would send me to the step because she was afraid of love.  I told her I was afraid of marriage and thought that she rushed it a little.  It hurt her feelings and she didn't talk to me for a few days.










The third day, she wanted to Skype again, so we did.  After we talked and laughed awhile, she told me that she had to tell me something.  I was all ears.











"I don't want to tell you this... but... I love you with all of my heart and soul and I'm afraid of losing you."










I was overjoyed!  I was finally loved by another woman and I'm sure that my face lit bright enough to light a thousand lighthouses.  I gave her my reply.










"I love you with all of my heart and mind and soul as well.  I can't wait for us to be in a large, pink , fluffy bed with satin sheets and please one another sensually.  I can't wait to be your wife!"










"I'M NOT GETTING MARRIED!"










"You're the one who brought it up."










"STEP!"










"Look, darling.  Don't be afraid of your feelings.  You know that we love each other and can't stand to be without each other."










She looked angry and went silent and logged off.










I knew that something wasn't right.  When she came back on a few days later though, she explained that a friend of hers died.  She said that she wished that she still had her care bear but someone stole it.










We continued to talk for awhile and I listened to her feelings about her friend passing.  I talked with her about her feelings and when she started crying, it pulled my heart strings.
I knew I had to do something to help her past this so I found the kind of care bear of which she was so fond and posted it to her.  It came to almost triple the price with the postage and handling but I didn't care.  I knew that she needed its comfort.










It arrived a few days before my birthday.  She seemed so happy to receive it.  It filled me with joy that I was able to make my foxy little queen angel mistress so happy.  I KNEW that we were going to be happy together. I found it strange later that she didn't tell me so much as "Happy Birthday " but she kept talking tenderly and lovingly.










She started letting me say that I love her on occasion but sometimes reminded me that she didn't like that word.  We grew closer and closer and one day I offered to buy some Super special friendship rings that were more than just friendship.  SHE SAID YES!










I started to order the expensive rings but something about her telling me that she didn't want to use the word love bothered me.  I bought a set of rings that would bond us but I bought the cheapest set of rings I could find to see whether or not she would send me my ring.  It was a test.










We continued to talk and she finally got the rings just before Valentine's Day.  Since it was a set, she was to send mine back to me.  She said that she loved it and was sending my ring the next day.  She asked for my address again to be sure that she got it right, which seemed strange, but I figured that since she asked she truly intended to send it. 










I surprised her on Valentine's Day posting the picture of the ring she sent me and tagged her so she would have a copy of the picture on her page.  I also posted a couple special Valentine's Day cards on her page to make her day special.  I told her that I had the money to get her to London and she said, "Don't make any plans."  She became angry that I posted something on her page.  I explained to her that I was just trying to make her Valentine's Day special since we were so far apart.  I started crying and told her and screamed at her that she couldn't let me enjoy even one moment.










"Oh, good grief.  Okay."










"Thank you" I whimpered.










People started making comments on the post and some were jealous and others had to try to make it about themselves, telling her how much better THEIR rings were.  I defended her and she told them that it was the most wonderful ring in the world.










The picture had posted twice on her page because of a facebook error so we left that post and started flirting with each other on the other post.  Some MAN jumped in and had to make a smart ass comment.










"This is all bullshit."










"You're bullshit!"  I was pissed that some MAN would try to ruin our wonderful moment.








Margaret jumped in.








"Not on MY page!"








She then blocked ME and I never heard from her again.  I never received my ring and I was glad that I had tested her with the cheaper rings first.  That wanker.  That cunt!  She gave me up for a fucking MAN!










I know it won't last as big of a lesbian that she really is.  I know that he's just using him for his money.  That trollop!  I'll never speak to her again!










The only problem is that picture is still on my song.  Everytime I see it, it breaks my heart.  I would have treated her so well and given her everything she wanted and he was probably going to beat the shit out of her like the last MAN did!  Good!  I hope he breaks her fucking NECK!  Still, I miss all of those sweet moments of laughter and fun we had, revealing our bodies to one another and running to the bedroom after to give ourselves release. 


Even though I removed the pictures of her from my favorites, they still come up on my cell phone.  Everytime I see that picture, my heart breaks again and tears flow from my eyes.  I so longed to kiss her tender lips and fondle her sweet breasts as she fondled mine.  I know that will never happen now and it tears me apart... EVERY TIME I SEE THAT PICTURE!  Fucking men!  Daft fucking cunt!









Thursday, June 19, 2014

Interview of Cal-el aka Cal Jennings of Space Eagle Productions

Interview of Cal-el aka Cal Jennings of Space Eagle Productions
  1. When did you start playing music and when did you start composing?
I started playing music when I was about 4 years old. But I maybe started a little earlier. I remember my grandmother's neighbor teaching me to play accordion and I played around on my grandparents' piano. When I was 5 years old my mom bought me a toy piano that had working black and white keys so I played on that. My grandfather gave me the xylophone that he played on the radio when I was about 6 or 7. My dad bought a guitar and never played it. I wasn't supposed to touch it but would play around on it when he was at work. Ultimately, I got a guitar lesson record and book and learned how to play notes and chords. I'm a self-taught and I had the the quality of being a perfectionist though I have become much more lax in my old age. When I was in sixth grade, my mom bought me a cornet which I played through high school becoming 1st chair cornet and 2nd chair trumpet only because I didn't have a trumpet. Trumpet became my main instrument, though I also bought an altonium because it was rare and the right price at a pawn shop. I played the altonium in college.
In terms of composition, I started in high school. Since my main instrument was cornet, I was used to playing single note lines of melody so writing in the bass clef was difficult (and still is) for me.
  1. What was your first instrument?
My first instrument was accordion or perhaps the toy xylophone that I had as a child. I was pretty versatile even back then.
  1. What were your early musical influences?
My early influences were anti-war folk groups like Peter, Paul, and Mary and other groups similar to them. I loved the harmony and the lyrics since they went along with what Jesus taught. My mom listened to The Beach Boys, Bobby Vinton, and Elvis a lot so they inspired me too. My dad played Johnny Cash a lot so “Folsom Prison Blues” was the first song I learned to play on guitar. Robert Watkins and Rick Cummings used to come over and play “Long Black Veil” a lot so they were and inspiration for me to sneak and play my dad's guitar. If he had found out, I would have gotten the beating of my life. When The Beatles came out, they became my biggest influence. I was a Beatle Freak as we were known back then. haha
  1. How do you feel about writing music? Does it just come to you?
I love writing music but it does have to come to me or I have to be in the mood to write something. I did have one song that came to me in a dream. It was being sung by a torch singer in a club. The melody was haunting but I was just walking up the aisle to exit to the right when she was singing. I don't know where we were leaving to when we were leaving the club but the melody was haunting and I could only remember a few of the lyrics. I talked to one of my friends, Veronica Garcia, and she suggested the way the lyrics should go so I wrote the song based on that.
  1. There are cross-overs between country and rock, but a cross over between rock and ethereal music seems unusual.
I compose soft Rock music, Country music, Ethereal music, or whatever comes to me. One day I wrote a “beat” just to prove I could do it. The ethereal music comes from the God part of myself. I arranged Pop rock like Chicago songs so I could play them on cornet for a long time before I started composing. I wanted to play with other players though so I started writing parts for other instruments. The love of a woman inspired my first semi-classical piece. Love or breakups are most of my inspiration, though at times there are songs that were inspired by a good mood. I love interesting, melodic chords so it comes natural to me.
  1. What is the name of your band?
I don't have a band except for my music composition program, Harmony Assistant by Myriad. Right now, my music composition program has an optional program, Virtual Singer, which I purchased that can sing the lyrics. That produces my “backup singers” for now. In my videos, I call my “band” “Cal-el.” It's a take off on Superman being portrayed as Jesus in Superman Returns. Someone had asked people to dress up as super heroes to talk to school children about Jesus and since I was in the Superman Returns Webmaster Program, naturally, I dressed up as Superman. Superman's name is “Kal-el,” the “el” representing “of God.” My name is Calvin or Cal for short which sounds like “Kal” so I adapted the name since I was part of an online ministry for those who are “disabled, disadvantaged, displaced or disenchanted in this world” and can't or won't get out to a church. The first time I wore the T-shirt, jeans, and cape outfit was at a 4th of July fireworks display in Tomball, TX. I was surprised to find that the elderly were as excited as or more excited than the kids were and would drive by and yell, “Hi Superman!” Ever since then, the name and t-shirt stuck. I used to wear a leather jacket with the t-shirt but it just gets too hot in this part of Texas. I would LOVE to have others collaborating online if I can't have a band.
  1. Who are your favorite musical performers and composers?
One of my favorite musical performers is... believe it or not... Barry Manilow. I think he stole my idea of changing classical music into Pop music. LOL (I really thought that for awhile.) I like Kenny Loggins, James Taylor, and other relatively mellow music for the most part. John Barry and John Williams are my favorite composers. They really know how to set the mood for a movie. I'm really not into Rap. I think the lyrics are abusive toward women and support an attitude of greed for the most part.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Indecision - Creative Challenge #42

Using the phrase or below as the theme (you don't have to use the exact words) post a poem, story or photo in your blog that has been created by you.

Please be sure to visit the other challenges when you get a chance (that's part of the fun)!

The phrase or word this week:
hanging in the balance

Indecision


Indecision - Composer: Cal Jennings


Life and death

Love and loss

Acceptance and fear

Hope and hatred

Peace and turmoil

In the middle

Lives are lost

Hanging in the balance

Undecided



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Copyright © 2009 Cal Jennings



My Darling - Creative Challenge #91

The phrase this week is: my darling


The rules:


Post a photo, story or poem that you have created using the word/phrase above as the inspiration/theme. (You do not have to use the exact phrase).


Bring the link back here and post it in the comment section.


Leave your blog open to EVERYONE so we can view it.


Visit the other entries and leave a comment about their work.


Above and have fun, that's why we are here!


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“Strawberry” by Cal Jennings in #2 Pencil


My Darling


What love has such a tender heart

And hair as red as fire

With skin so pure and porcelain

Has kindled my desire?

Thou hast shown me trust and faith

Moreso than any other

Our talents matching markedly

How could I want another?

'Twas listening to Beatles' song

That dreams of you appeared

But when you looked into my eyes

It was to be revered

So let us make the music

For all the world to sing

Walking arm in arm through life

True love to Earth we'll bring



By “Strawberry” in felt pen and colored pencil


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Copyright © 2009 Cal Jennings